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Lately I've been trying to figure out if what I'm doing is worth something. I'm not even talking about money value, but artistically. There are so many amazing artists out there and I don't feel I belong with them. But maybe I'm just wrongly focusing on success and I'm craving for recognition more than personal fulfillment. At the end of the day, even if it's "worthless", I like what I'm doing. This silly Cthulhu Project is pretty fun. So fuck it if it doesn't take me anywhere and nothing else will come out of it. I'll just try my best and we'll see what happens. I realized that I'm going back and forth with this kind of thoughts practica

Even if I know that nobody's reading these journals or actively following me, I decided to write down some updates regarding my Cthulhu project. As I explained before, I was following a structure of four pieces with a little theme for every "series", and some specials here and there. Well, no more of that. Initially I thought it was cool and challenging to have some rules to follow, but lately I found myself very limited, and more that once frustrated because I had to dismiss an idea indefinitely because it wasn't fitting in the current theme, nor the following three/four already planned. That's not a good thing, considering that I have some

Hi everybody! It's been awhile since the last journal, but I haven't had anything relevant to say, until now! After a long period without any real inspiration and desire to draw, I finally found an interesting and fun idea to keep me busy that I called Cthulhu Project! What is it exactly? Well, it's pretty simple : An ongoing collection of cthuloids fashionable characters. This project is my relief valve against my depression. I like doing portraits and starting from a photo of a REAL person I like to create something new, mostly through flat bright colors and thick black lines, adding a hint of a fantasy and surreal feel with... a bun